Aspects Of Eshal

This has to be the suckiest day of my year

2008-05-05T12:07:56Z

Today I said goodbye to my Baby. At 16 years of age and ill he let me know it was time to go. It absolutely broke my heart to see him go to sleep for the final time and then put him in his final resting place. Charlie has been my constant friend and companion for over 14 years and its going to take a long time to get over not having him in my life. Everyone that met him seemed to love him, he certainly was unique.

My other dog Jett is going to be so lost without him, she has only been with us for 4 years but she loved Charlie and was so protective of him if any other dogs so much as looked at him wrong.

Charles Livingston Budgerigar Brennan-MacLean aka Charlie, The Chuckster, Chuckie, Chuckles, Chucklebugs, Chuckie Chicken, Doofus. Love you baby boy!

Charlie in 2005

Charlie and my girl Jett at in May last year

Holidays!

2007-07-11T13:15:46Z

Almost 3/4 of the way through the mid year break from uni.., man it goes way faster than what it should I think. I swear there are huge cosmic hamsters running round in a wheel speeding up time just to stuff up everyone enjoying their leisure time and make it too short!

Anyways I got the final results on the awful saga that was this semester...I got a credit...which I am absolutely sure I wouldn't have gotten without the fantastic lady who was my partner...I am trying to thing of something really nice to send to her cause she just kicked arse in writing the documentation for our project.

I have a sneaking suspicion that the course coordinator gave me a bum steer when advising me on what subject to do in order to exit with a diploma rather than the full bachelor which would involve way too much programing for my brain to cope with. I found out today that apparently I can't take the last remaining 2 units as 1 is only run in the first semester and the other requires 2 extra 3rd year elective subjects for anyone to undertake it...never mind that this last semester was spent studying crap that is basically used in the damn unit and seems to be what the whole unit is about! All I want is to finish this damn course so I can start the one I need to undertake to keep my qualifications up to date for work. I am so getting over the whole studying experience in hyper-speed mode let me tell you!

I hate studying

2007-06-19T09:17:18Z

Well...its not so much the learning I hate its the damn stupid assignments, the way they are set and the information you are given only to have that information changed that cheeses me off to the nth degree!

My group (the 2 of us) were told as we didn't have enough people (should have around 4 -6) to actually carry out all the activities necessary to meet the criteria we could leave out some of the elements in order to be able to complete the course. Well we did that..or so we thought. When the feedback marking on our assignment arrives we find that we got a "Pass". Personally I think we deserved a Credit but that it neither here no there. What has me steaming is that along in the marking it is mentioned it's a pity we didn't complete more of the criteria. Mind you these were the criteria we were given leave to exclude from our assignment. I don't know if we misinterpreted the instructions or something. But one would assume that when you are told that you can leave out the elements that would have been assigned to your "other" group partners (bar elements vital to the work) that this would mean leaving them out won't penalise your results!!!

Anyway enough of my ranting...until I get the results to the final assignment :)

I am hoping when the mid year break comes I can get some work done with my graphics and maybe work on XX until then I will wade through the marking I have to get done before semesters end.

~Eshal~

Friday Update

2007-02-17T01:10:38Z

Hi guys,

Here's this weeks Friday Update.

There are updates to 3 ongoing submissive fic's this week...Gotta love a subby yet feisty Xander!

The ever kink filled Toys by Litgal. The yummy kink-er-riffic Just Another Game by Pixel and Last but by no means least the delicious Runaway by Sexymermaid.

I also went through and made fixes to about 20 pages which had bad misdirect or image problems.

Well that's it for now...seeya next week

~Eshal~

******** Cross-Posted to XX LJ and Yahoogroup ********

Images

2006-11-01T10:36:28Z

I was going to do an image for Halloween but my inspiration kinda ran away...so I thought I might put up a couple of old images I did a while back that can sort of fit the bill...

Although being an Aussie I don't celebrate the holiday ... Happy Halloween to all those that do! :)

Take a huge breath and begins to rant....

2006-10-29T12:13:18Z

myspace sucks like a blackhole to the nth degree!!!

Having spent the better part of a day dicking around with the layouts at myspace *trying* to update my friends oldests' page all I can say to the person who actually designed the whole layout and the update facilities ...."You my friend are sorely in need of the rough end of a pineapple and some alone time with a few pages of the karma-sutra!".

Come on now! A person should not have to know the whole spectrum of webpage building nor should they have to pull page code apart to understand what the hell it is doing!! Not everyone wants your god awful production line layout..myspace is supposed to be popular for the ability to customise it???? Bullshit!!

I've just about given up cause I don't have the patience of the time to waste doing this crap...if there is anyone out there who is a myspace guru can you please give me a shout so I can get this page set up right.

/ends rant panting for breath

When shit happens ..why does it happen all at once!

2006-10-29T01:53:47Z

Bloody F'n Hell!!!!!!!!!!!!
At this stage I absolutely hate my uni course and anything that involves programing. Nothing and I mean absolutely nothing in my SQL Database course is working.

For our final assignment we have to write three simple queries to arrive at the answers that are given to us. Simple...no bloody way!

Now I know I am not the brightest spark in the fire when it comes to programing but I can't even get one of the three to work which drives me insane and then to make it all so much better I can't get the program to run my queries via remote access to the uni.

I have come to the decision I am going to hand in the report portion of the assignment, it is worth 70% of this particular assignment and stuff the rest otherwise I will never hand the damn thing in. As it is it is already late. Then I am going to study like a maniac until my exam in the next fortnight.

I am definitely going to seriously think about taking a 6 month break from this cause I can feel myself rapidly being disillusioned with the who frigging course!

A long time coming but I am finally getting rid of books and clutter

2006-10-21T12:13:47Z

I am a packrat of epic proportions, having gained the gene from both sides of my family.
My main downfall is books.

I decided that I should really be brave and have a good clean out, in doing so I might also be able to make enough money to get the massive (not to mention dangerous) tree in my front yard cut down or at least whittled down enough that its not as dangerous.

I was sorting through a room of stuff getting things ready for a lawn(yard)sale in the near future and I looked at the boxes upon boxes of books I had stored away.

They were stored away partly cause I don't have enough shelf space for them, the other reason being I haven't got around to unpacking them from the last time I packed them up when a cyclone was heading our way. Anyway I went through them sorting what I could possibly part with. Having done that I looked at the puny pile of books that I figured I could part with and the massive hoard I still had.

I looked at those books I had set aside (of which a massive amount were historical bodice rippers and contemporary romance lines like Silhouette Desire, Loveswept and Harlequin Mills & Boon, Temptations and Masquerade)the others being Sci-Fi Fantasy. I figured bugga it, its not like I am going to re-read most of these in the near future. So I am now currently going through and listing them so I can put them all on a webpage for people to see and maybe buy online as well as putting some out for the lawnsale.

So far I have around 173 book listed ( I'm starting on the easy ones first :) and if I get my act together I should have most of the books done in a week or so. This is the list so far :

Loveswept Romance Book List
The links of the index pages don't work yet the site is having some sort of coding issues

I just know that once I get rid of them and all the other stuff I have hoarded over the years I will feel that wonderful light feeling you get when you have a thorough clean out and reaslise how much crap you actually had! :)

Playing inPSP

2006-09-09T05:55:55Z

Saw this base on DS yesterday and decided to have a go at a manipulation something I rarely do these days. As usual I came out with more than one version of the same image. As I am running with the base install of PSP I only have few filters at my disposal and I like the brush effect so you will get an OD of it here :). Some I of the images I don't mind others I think missed the mark totally...either way it was a good way to fritter away time avoiding other stuff :)

Here are the images:
Nick Versions
1( abstract) 2 3 4

James Versions
1( abstract) 2 3 4

I HATE Java

2006-09-07T10:15:55Z

I cannot stress enough how much I hate java programming not to mention programming in general. It drives me insane, I can read the code, understand the theory of what its all about and what it is doing but I can't for the life of me actually write the stupid stuff!! I have an assignment due tomorrow and all I can do it look at what I am supposed to do and go ..huh??.

I know I should have gone to the lecturer and go help but I am a perverse individual in that I refuse to acknowledge that a stupid programming language is kicking my arse! Why can't it be easy like webpages?

Want to know the really scary thing?...I actually have to sit an exam where I am expected to hand write the damn code out....god I am so going to go down in a ball of flames on this one. Oh well enough whinging I'm going to venture back into programming land....

Finishing unfinished pics

2006-09-01T13:47:01Z

Just finishing off some images I started a little while back for the artist/writer banner challenge. They didn't come out how I wanted them too at the time...however no I have have had time away from them I managed to get them finished.

Breaking Free by stillrose

Darkness Descends by dark_amia

Inspired by White Marble

2006-08-04T07:14:06Z

Just on my way out to dinner and remembered to post this

Pic past this link

Getting my fill of Adorable today

2006-07-28T10:22:38Z

I got these links sent to me. Now I am more of a dog person myself on account of allergies to kitties but this link makes me remember that if it weren't for allergies I would have one as well :)

Introducing Baffle

Baffle Overload!

So Close and Yet So Far

2006-07-27T13:53:09Z

I am so damn annoyed at the moment. I have been working on an image for a fic for a few days and everytime I am ready to finalize it my computer locks up.

So I decided to take a break and get back to working on a characterization of Xander I have been playing with on and off for a while. Just when I think I get close I spot something that I need to do and in doing that it makes everything else I have done look wrong! Its got some elements close and others are so far off its not funny but for now I am give my poor computer and mouse hand a break :)Anyway here is the latest incarnation :

Its Official...

2006-07-20T12:46:23Z

I am truly strange....I finally got around to watching Alien vs Predator on dvd and came to the conclusion that there is a definite sexy fascination factor that the Predators hold for me. I think it may have started a while back when I read some of the A vs P comic books, the movie just cemented it. Damn but I need to get a love/romance/whatever life *lol*

The Goldfish made me do it!!!!

2006-07-11T05:04:22Z

This image has been buzzing around in my head for a few weeks now and it was finally dragged out to reality by Sexymermaids Janitor and Liam's love for his pet...

Here's the result, Goldie taking a cruise around her new tank loaded with all the mod cons a fish could ask for..:

Desktops.....and they're ummmm pink....

2006-07-03T10:52:03Z

Finally got around to uploading some Desktops Wallpapers that were made from rejects to the pink banner I made for Moz. On the whole they turned out fairly well.

I also made some icons for the computer.Confused a few people who tried to use them as icons for forums, livejournal etc. These computer icons are meant to take the place of program & folder icons on a windows bases machine.

This is an example of what the finished product could be like if you install the icons and a desktop.

Desktop Sample

Here is a link to the site hosting the Desktops....please be warned! If you don't like pink a whole lot then you might want to give these a miss. The banner I made for Moz was for the pink skin and as these are made from rejects to the skins they will be pink! :)

Desktop Wallpapers and Computer Icons

There is a password to get to the downloads...mozzies

Just had to laugh at myself !

2006-06-30T14:12:26Z

I had just commented after I finished reading the latest chapter to Sexymermaids - Janitor. And as I hit Post on my comment, I realised how I had just joined the throng of potential vigilantes who will be out for blood should Goldie the goldfish go belly up. I burst out laughing at the ridiculousness of it all but it goes to show you how great a storyteller the lady is if she can have the audience rooting for a goldfish and a non-speaking non-3d animated one at that! :)I don't think I have had this reaction to a pet or animal in a story since I bawled my way through Charlotte's Web a few years back(for the umteenth time).

Its one of the reasons I love reading fanfic...you get taken places and made to react in ways you may never have done before.

Winding Down

2006-06-21T12:27:24Z

Just taking a break from assignment marking to wind down a little.

I am not finished with this particular image but atm it will do. If I add anymore to it my computer is going to go on strike with the work I am making it do :)

The inspiration for this was Wings by Sexymermaid. Fic seems to have inspired as a lot of my images lately, I just wish I had the time to make images for all of the fics that I have read and loved!

Need some help ..I am looking for some special JM pics

2006-06-09T11:16:47Z

I am looking for a few pics of James either as himself or in Spike mode in *perfect* profile. I would really prefer they be with him showing no emotion at all although I can work around small facial movement. They also have to be of a decent size and good quality, I have 1000's of pics of the man, yet none are what I need. If anybody out there can help me in my quest I would be really grateful.

Taking a break from studying...

2006-06-06T10:18:32Z

I am in the middle of studying madly for one part of a networking exam I have coming up soon and I needed a break. Unfortunately I haven't been the frame of mind to do much. I tried doing a few pictures but only one came out anywhere near anything that remotely resembles what I had in mind. I have a heap of ideas and none of them are screaming at me to be made at the moment. Maybe later... anyway here is the image I managed to get finished.

Quick post and I'm outta here...

2006-05-25T18:04:08Z

I had this image in my head after reading Wings by sexymermaid and it is still niggling at me so I did this image. I have another one I want to do to follow this but it can wait til I get some sleep

I'm off now to bed and when I surface I will update XX.

Avoiding studying

2006-05-24T17:18:40Z

This week seems to be full of opportunities for me to do what I am good at....studying...or rather avoiding it :)

I ended up in my graphics programs, where I nearly always do when I am bludging. Here's the result, the image is part of idea for an image fic by Kayla that I have been playing with for a while. I thought I might post it here as it kind seems to fit in with the theme

Goofing Off

2006-05-19T13:33:16Z

I've been playing around with an idea for characters for about 2 years now and I think I have started to get them to start becoming a visual reality. I made a few images and this characters is pretty much settled though I may change colouring and minor things later

Full Body Shot

Closeup Shot

Rant at University Bureaucracy

2006-05-17T06:40:53Z

I am sooooo Pissed Off!!!!! Don't get me wrong, I love my work, I think it is the best job in the world and I like where I work...but...I frigging hate the damn pay system it sucks like a black hole!! Not only do they make you wait a month until you get paid from the time you initially sign a contract and not give a crap about the fact you have to survive on nothing in the mean time. They do this every!time! you sign a contract regardless of the fact that you are already in the pay system although you may be inactive, what I'd like to know is why it takes so bloody long *EVERY SINGLE FREAKING TIME!!!* Its alright for them most are actually full time or have contracts that last the year...I have to go on the whims of student intake and class numbers to get my contract. The either laugh or smile at the stuff up ...they seem to not connect the dots to the reality that I am trying to live here! ARRRRRGGGGGHHH!

Ok I feel marginally better...I am now going to head back to uni to work....which I will hopefully get paid for really soon!

NB: Found out today that one of the office staff got fired due to not doing the job she was hired to, which included dealing with sending certain paperwork to the right department. Apparently there was a pile of paperwork hiding in a bottom draw. This was where it got filed when the staffer didn't know what to do. Everything has now been rectified so hopefully.